Show Me a Sign.

Some of you might laugh at this post, and that's ok. It was such an overwhelming experience for me, though, that I want to share it with you.

Yesterday was a particularly mopey day for me. Everything I did, saw, or ate (I swear!) reminded me of Felix. Then I got to thinking about my life, and some of the decisions I may have ahead of me, and how I feel like I'm completely in limbo, waiting for my next big life experience.

So, and I tell you this not so you'll feel sorry for me, but so you can identify with my mood, I kind of cried off and on all evening. On my way to work, I decided to have a little chat with God. I've been doing that alot lately, even though I haven't stepped inside a church for at least ten years. So, I'm driving to work, talking to God, and I said, "If only there was a way I KNEW everything was going to be ok, that I haven't made any huge mistakes...if only there was a way I knew I was on the right track."

Next thing I know, I'm driving around a bend on the highway, on a very cold, crisp, CLEAR night, and I see this low, thin, veil of fog in front of me. I don't know how to describe it...but it was the most unusual fog I've ever seen. It was only "hovering" over a very small part of the highway, and I didn't have to drive through it, because it honestly looked like it was a suspended wisp of fog hovering over the road. I was the only car on the highway. When I saw it, it kind of made me gasp, because it was so unusual looking. At the same time, my ipod changed to the song "Details in the Fabric" by Jason Mraz. Here are the lyrics:

Calm down
Deep breaths
And get yourself dressed instead
Of running around
And pulling all your threads and
Breaking yourself up

If it's a broken part, replace it
If it’s a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it

And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way

And everything will be fine

Hang on
Help is on the way
Stay strong
I'm doing everything

Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way

And everything
Everything will be fine
Everything

Are the details in the fabric
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling?

Are the things that make you blow
Hell, no reason, go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault
Of faulty manufacturing.

Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Everything

Hold your own
And know your name
Go your own way

Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own)
Are the things that make you panic (Know your name)
Are your thoughts results of static cling? (Go your own way)

Hold your own
Know your name
Go your own way.

Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own)
Are the things that make you panic (Know your name)
Is it Mother Nature's sewing machine? (Go your own way)
Are the things that make you blow (Hold your own)
Hell no reason go on and scream (Know your name)
If you’re shocked it's just the fault (Go your own way)
Of faulty manufacturing

Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Hearts will hold


So, I don't know about you, but I think it was a pretty amazing experience, and I think God is telling me I'm on the right track and everything is going to turn out fine, if not better than that. Happy Tuesday.